Incidentally, I agree with your take on faith, so I search for credible evidence that provides the requirement to get past faith and belief and come to know yes or no based only on the great bulk of credible evidence. I have found it, beyond a reasonable doubt.
I expect that due to your strong negative belief you are unlikely to oppose your apparently powerful belief to honestly search for contrary evidence, since you have not yet done so.
At any rate, I wish you well on your journey toward Truth.