Spoken like a true atheist with a closed mind. It is amazing how good folks like you can ignore overwhelming evidence you are wrong. But, that’s ok. You have a big surprise coming. As an 85 year old lawyer and geophysicist, I know a little bit about evidence. The fact of survival is beyond a reasonable doubt. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain by doing open minded investigation that you obviously have not done.
Give it a shot.