Stick with it, brother. You are destined, with your cooperation, to be a hell of a preacher, because you are real, you are truly human, honest (that is a rare characteristic these days) and wonderfully empathetic, as well as intelligent (another rare commodity today).
OK, have I laid it on thick enough? Is your ego trying to puff up a little? If not, I can keep going. But, the point is, YOU keep going. You don’t whine, thank you. You keep your darkest moments dark, private, but you have them, times when you ask, “What the hell am I doing, and why? Am I ‘called’?” Yep, has to happen. All part of the training.
I’m talking too much. That is what geophysicists turned lawyer turned mediator do.
So, carry on. You have friends and prayers of which you know not.
Yea, a little money would help. I’ll see what I can do. Prayers and good wishes - sounds like the government. Lets put some meat on this bone. How do I do it?
Rip