THE PROCESS CONTINUES

REDEMPTION — ALWAYS MORE TO LEARN

Even with The Process I’ve known and followed for years, as discussed earlier, there must always be new learning, growth. Often times new learning first requires a distinct setback.

I am just coming out of a disturbing “setback”. As I said earlier, as surprisingly beneficial as The Process has been and is, it is not a miracle worker, and for the sake of further growth, further learning, a pouring out is occasionally necessary so new learning can be poured in.

A little over a week ago I woke up down. My dreams were not clearly remembered except for the tiring, dark, disturbing nature they presented. Upon finally getting out of bed I was acutely aware of a weak, dizzy condition, feeling truly poured out.

I wondered, “What bug have I somehow picked up?” But this was not a virus or other ordinary illness. This was something else.

I didn’t have the physical or mental energy even to think on, “What the hell is going on with me?”. It seemed as if suddenly I really was 84 years old, worn out and poured out, worthless.

All I could do that day was eat just enough to keep going, but I wasn’t going. I could only sit, worthless. “This is not me”, I thought. But, it sure seemed as if this was what I had over night become. So deeply disturbing was this condition I could not put it in words.

After three days of this weakness I could finally slowly walk a couple of blocks. I left Rockport on the bay, and…